Friday, January 29, 2010

Did I get dumped?

Yesterday I had my hair cut for the first time in about 6 months. I was overdue. I've decided to let it grow out again, but needed a trim desperately. The appointment was for 2pm and the plan was to leave Delanah with G-pa and Aunt Dee. Well...little miss Delanah was such a clinger yesterday and started crying every time I was out of sight. She would have been fine within 10-15min of me leaving, but G-pa was not comfortable at all with watching her. Apparently her being more mobile has him running scared ;)

We arrive early, were given a smile and hello from the stylist and then left to wait until 20min past the appointment time! I saw how much time she was taking with the woman in front of me....but then it was dawdling afterwards that made me the most late. I think from start to finish it didn't even take 40min. The lady in front of me, given styling tips, cleaned and preened for quite some time. Me? I had hair fall into my mouth more than once during the cut and was left with more hair on my shirt front and back than I knew what to do with. To top things off, her prices have gone up and were astronomical! Guess I should have asked when I called. I got less done yesterday and paid a lot more than what I ever have before. Yes, it was a lot of money, but money I would have been okay with paying had I been treated better.

I think I was dumped by my hair dresser! If I wasn't, why would I have been treated so poorly? There was no one waiting after me, there was more than enough time to make sure I didn't go out of there with a hairy chest and back. I've been wanting to look for someone closer to me and it looks like that's what I'm going to do.

Okay, a confession...I've always been a bad tipper, not on purpose, but I am. Anyhoos, After we left I realized that I left her an 11% tip. Guess I stiffed her on the tip....I really don't feel bad about that though....

TGIF!

Yay! We survived the week! You know, if anything, I've learned this week that staying home and cleaning and playing can be just as satisfying, if not more, than scheduling so many play dates. We took it easy yesterday morning before traveling south and it was SO nice to come home to laundry done, floors clean and the place picked up. I think we're going to do that again this morning. Delanah seems quite content to "help" me with the chores and the house looks so much better clean :)

Dave comes home tonight....woo-hoo! We didn't talk last night because he was so tired, I was exhausted as well so although I missed hearing his voice, it was probably for the best to just rest. I was actually in bed before 10! That's just shocking for me! I liked it though...I should try that again :) Delanah was exhausted and slept from 8:45pm to 7:30am. I think we were both in recovery mode :) I am hoping to get everything done this morning to make for a nice house to come home to for Dave tonight. I've let some things go this week, but I'm feeling pretty darn peppy this morning!

I am meeting a new mom today to go walking with. I'm excited, she sounds interesting and I love meeting new people. Hope we don't freeze!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Better and worse...

How can this trip, with Dave gone for a week, be better than past trips and worse at the same time? I am dealing this time so much better. Chores are getting done, I rarely lose it, the dog is getting walks, Delanah and I are having heaps of play time and get out of the house and I get adult interaction daily...I'm even making dinners from scratch!

It's worse because I miss Dave so much. Delanah is walking further and further daily, and he's missing it, and that makes my heart hurt. Delanah started singing in the car this week as well, another special moment that her Daddy doesn't get to share in. I know it hurts his heart as well, I can hear it in his voice when I share things with him.

I am 3 weeks into a 10 week Bible study that has started a change within me. This was something I needed so badly and didn't even know it. It has changed the way I interact with Dave while he's gone, the way I see things during the day, changed the way I react to things. I have also found the most wonderful Christian station on the radio and that plays in our house and car all day long. It's so hard to get upset over the little things when you hear such beautiful words coming from the speakers. I feel a new peace about me and I hope I am passing that on to my wonderful daughter; I hope it's coming through in my interactions with Dave as well.

It's difficult to be feeling what I am feeling, and wanting to share that with Dave and not being able to. There are some difficult weeks ahead for us with Dave gone and some busy days for the kiddo and I. If I let myself get caught up in the details, I can feel a panic coming on, but then I remember that all I need to do is pray for the strength and look at the big picture. I can do this. My family can do this. I am never alone.

Monday, January 25, 2010

My little walker :)

Delanah has decided that walking is fun. This is such an exciting time! Unfortunately Dave left yesterday morning and is missing it all. She was taking steps last week, but it was mainly when Dave and I were playing baby-pong. Today she was looking for every opportunity possible to stand up and walk...awesome! She gets the biggest grin on her face as well, she is so darn proud of herself. I love that I can witness this, I love that I get to be her cheerleader and she is figuring this whole walking thing out. Tonight she found a bag and was stuffing it full of mail (going to have to get that back) and her books and toys and was trying so hard to stand up and walk with it. I managed to get some of it on film, I want Dave to be able to feel like he is sharing in this as well. The entire time this was going on she was just chattering away. I love her storytelling, she'll talk, then look at me to make sure I understand and waits for me to insert some words. She is the most amazing little girl ever. My heart is just so full of love right now and I am really enjoying this time we have together. I am exhausted, but I am loving this time.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Success!!!

Today was week #2 of my morning women's bible study, which meant week #2 for Delanah in the daycare. Last week...not so good. This morning I got there early and sat in the room with her and let her adjust on her own and soon she was off and playing with the toys. At one point I got up to get her a name tag and she started losing it, so down on the floor I sat again and then made my escape. She did great! They even managed to get a diaper change in this time! She was playing and looked so happy when I went to get her :) Does my heart good. I think I like these ladies a bit more than the crew who watches her for MOPS. These moms have their kiddos in the room too and are sweet enough to allow me in the room to make the transition easier for her and even wipe her nose when she cries. Something so simple, but means a lot to a mom who doesn't let that go unchecked at home.
If we continue to have success I am going to try her in the daycare at the gym too. I would love to have the chance to get some workouts in during the day. I have the membership, just can't use it!

Friday, January 15, 2010

Her first steps!

Today we hit a milestone that I wasn't sure was ever going to happen! Okay, I knew it was going to happen, but I've kinda gotten used to her butt scoot. My baby girl took her first steps!!!! We were at a play date and I was chatting with a friend. Delanah was standing unsupported (as she has been doing more and more over the past week) and she saw my friends daughter with something she was interested in, and took 2 steps! I was in shock, stopped talking and Taryn and I looked at each other and she had a huge grin on her face. I had a witness! A minute or so later she did it again! After that she figure out what I was doing and decided that giggling and falling onto her bum was more fun :)

I wanted to shout it from the roof tops! I love my friends even more after today, I told them what happened and they were almost as excited as I was! It's so awesome having such supportive friends to share in your joy :) I now have predictions from 2 people that within 2 weeks Delanah will be running...we'll have to see!

I tried calling Dave at work, no answer, I tried calling G-ma, no answer, then I discovered that Teague had called a bit earlier...lucky he was the first family member to hear the news! Dave was excited but disappointed. Excited that it had happened, disappointed that he had missed it. When he got home tonight I made sure Delanah was primed and ready and we settled in for some baby-pong. She took more steps! I think the most she took was 4-5 towards me from Dave. We were using my water (she loves drinking from my cup) and an animal cracker as bribes :) All was fun until she realized she was our entertainment for the evening and she decided to bum scoot some more. I don't think Bailey is as excited as everyone else. She laid down and was watching the walking with a look of concern on her face...here comes more fun!

My baby girl is learning to walk! How awesome is she?!

Thursday, January 14, 2010

She said Bailey!!!

This morning when I went to get Delanah from her crib she was standing up and signing "bird" like crazy. Piper was squawking and Delanah heard it for sure! Bay followed me in and went straight to the crib to give Delanah kisses through the slats, as is done every time Bay comes in to see Delanah and she is in the crib. I got Delanah out and we were walking around and Bay laid down to get some belly scratches. I have been repeating Bailey's name for some time now, hoping Delanah would pick up on it, and clear as anything Delanah looks at Bay and says "Bailey"! SO exciting!!!

Delanah has really been picking up on signs a lot in the last few weeks and communicates quite well now. Just in the last few days she really caught on to the sign for dog. I know I should be sitting her down and teaching her her colors and the alphabet, but with her signs we're all a lot less frustrated than many families I know because we can communicate. Okay, maybe today we'll start on the alphabet :)

Walking

My sweet little girl isn't walking on her own yet, but we are in such a fun phase right now. Just in the past week or so, even more so in the past few days, she has wanted to walk everywhere. She holds on to walls, the dog, furniture, and a lot of the time, my finger. I don't even have to hold her entire hand anymore. She grabs on to my finger and we walk from the living room to the kitchen and back again...over and over and over. She has a great time when Bailey starts following us...the giggles start and she starts increasing her speed and oh the joy that emanates from that little girl! She just lights up a room and definitely lights up my day.
Last night she was a big cuddle bug. When Dave got home we all ended up in the kitchen and I sat on the floor and quick as anything she was there and climbed into my lap. She was fine as long as she was sitting in my lap. I love that she wants to be with me :) There was a lot of walking last night, and she even took a step or two on her own! Dave was shocked to see her standing at her cupboard and using both hands to play with the measuring cups. She's so close to walking! She has a funny little walk right now, she sometimes forgets to bring her left leg as far forward as her right. Dave was walking with her quickly last night and when we increase the speed her footsteps even out and she has a little less robotic gait. Good times, good times :)

Insomnia revisited

I knew it was too good to last, this whole sleeping thing. For the past several nights I have had about 7 hours of sleep a night...awesome! I haven't had that much sleep consistently in months! Too bad it was so short lived. Why does this always happen?! I have a few theories, and some things that I know need to change sooner rather than later. 1. our mattress. 7 years is a long time. There is not a lot of support left, there are so many better ones out there! 2. Dave's freakin' twitching! Tonight was the worst it's been in awhile, but seriously, how many more years do I need to live with it before he finally finds the time to see a doctor about it?! It's really not fair that I am the one suffering the consequences because he still doesn't think it's that big of a deal.

I also hate having so many chores planned for the next day. This morning Delanah was up early and it would have been the perfect time to get some grocery shopping done, but Dave had the Murano so we were stuck at home. This afternoon it was grocery shop or take Bay for a walk, we opted for the walk and I'm glad we did. I love getting some fresh air and Bay really needed it. So my mind is racing as I am trying to figure out my day tomorrow. There are so many things to do! Laundry, cleaning, groceries, and I want to start getting some Wii fit time in and I really want to do some of the activities with Delanah I have been planning for awhile. I need sleep!

I finally got sleepy enough tonight and went to bed and seriously was almost twitched out of bed. I really need to talk to Dave about it, but when I am not so tired and irritated.....sleep, please come!