How did I get here?

How did I get here? How was I on top of the world yesterday and now all I want is for the emptiness to be gone? Please say this is just hormonal, I don't want this to be my new reality. I hate feeling so confident about myself one minute and thinking that I don't deserve anything the next. Yesterday I felt so smart...back in the clinic, confident in my skills, having people thank me for helping them, confident enough that I agreed to working 3 Saturdays for the clinic. That morning I was contacted to perform an ergonomic assessment, people so grateful at the thought that they would feel better soon. I slept so well last night.....

Then today came. Do I believe that Friday the 13th brings bad luck? No, but I forgot to think about the day after..... Today I question what it is that I do right. Can I treat in a clinic? Sure! I know I can do that. Am I a good mom? I thought so..... A good wife? I really try to be... A good daughter? I do my best there too.....or do I? Do I really give my all to these roles? If I do, then why do people not see it? Am I deluding myself? Am I really thinking so much about me that I make myself grander in my mind than I really am? How much can one person give? If you feel like you're already giving it your all and find out that it's not enough, where do you go from there?

Here I sit listening to KLOVE, the most wonderful Christian station. I believe the songs, I feel the words move through me, I try to ingrain them in my being. How is this not enough? Where do I go from here? What is He trying to tell me? Was I too confident in myself yesterday and needed to be grounded? What is the lesson here because all I know is that I am scraping the bottom of the barrel and am having a hard time even seeing the top. I cry out to Him...I need His guidance...where do You need me to be?