Really bad, no good, horrible day...

....or at least an hour of a day. Today my darling daughter turned into someone I really didn't like. It's hard to say that. How can a mom not like her own child? Ahhh....let me tell you... (Keep in mind that I do not have to like her to still love her and be willing to do anything for her).

Today started out so well. She woke up happy, we were on time, things were getting done, good times. We had a play date with friends, she played well, had good manners, shared toys. Then came time to go home. She didn't want to leave. She started making hitting and kicking motions towards me, then she made contact. Straight to time out. Then the screaming started. The "I am so mad right now and I am going to make everyone within a mile radius know exactly how mad I am" scream. We tried to get her to leave the house, no go, she had worked herself into quite a state. The host, her daughter and myself all walked out the front door hoping she would follow. Nope. Had to carry my child football hold while she was kicking and screaming. Awesome. The real fun started once we got in the car and my precious child began scratching, pinching and slapping me. Where did she learn those behaviours? Where did my little girl go and who was this little fighter?

Not better when we got home and she went after Dave's shins. Yes, she was tired, and no, she didn't want to leave the play date, but really? It was awful. She woke from nap and came in full of cuddles and apologized to me. I don't not like her anymore, but man, hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when your child is pummeling you.

I really hope this isn't a preview of what's to come. Maybe life will be a bit more calm once we move and there is a tad more stability for her. Ugh. Today was not a good day.

First day off

So here I am, in the countdown to our move. Today is my first day "off" in quite a long time. Still enough time before the move that there is nothing absolutely pressing that needs to be done today, kidlet is at school, and here I sit, no real idea of what I am going to do with myself! Oh, there are so many things to be done, but where do I start? A nap sounds sooooo good; such a guilty pleasure. Do I give in now or wait until something is actually accomplished? I did manage to get the trash out on time this morning...can that count as my accomplishment?

I am grateful that I am not feeling as sick this morning, seems like my poor body hasn't been able to catch a break since the kidney stone incident. I'm not sleeping that well, very vivid and strange dreams...only 29 more weeks of that! I can sense that my time of stomach sleeping is coming to an end soon...so sad. In some of my dreams I am even dreaming about sleeping on my stomach, guess I'm more worried about that than I thought! Still not ready for all the changes that are happening to me/within me right now. You know, I think with the move I got so used to hanging out in denial that I just apply that to all aspects of my life now. Denial is a comfortable place to be.

Back to my query....what should I do with myself today? I need to clean (boring), laundry (boring), but I really want to pull out my cross stitch and start working on my project again. Hmmmm...responsible parent today or slacker? Sigh, responsible parent first, slacker second. Sometimes making adult decisions sucks.