Why do I do this?

Why do I get caught up in a good book and stay up way past my bedtime? Thus was my night last night and I am paying for it today! Delanah went down with minimal fussing last night. She would fuss for a few minutes, play with her baterfly and talk to herself, then fuss again, and was asleep within 20 min. I went to bed an hour later and finally fell asleep about 3 hours later! Ooops! She was kind enough to let me sleep until a little after 6 this morning. I tried napping mid-morning, but never quite fell into a deep sleep.
Tonight Dave came home!!!! Delanah and I hung out with g-pa until g-ma got home at 4:30. We were going to leave around lunch time, but I thought it would be nice for g-ma to have a few more cuddles with her. We left a little after 5 and Dave sent a text saying he was landing about 6:40! Yay!!!! We had time to get home, unpack most of the car (you would have thought we were moving) and before we knew it, Delanah was getting Daddy cuddles :) Our schedule was off by about an hour tonight, but it is 10:46 and my darling girl is asleep! More fussing than normal tonight, but she was very overtired and that affects her a lot.
I need to get myself to sleep now!

Ouch!!

Since Delanah was a little more than a week old I have had right wrist pain. It was the same hand that I hyperextended my thumb on, so I wasn't sure where exactly the pain was coming from. Well, my thumb healed awhile ago and the pain in my wrist is getting more and more intense. I think it's about time that I go and have this checked out. I am going to try to convince one or more of my PT friends to take a look at it first and see what they recommend. Yes, I should be able to diagnose this myself, but I have mommy brain!!!
This afternoon was one of the worst and I had to just have Delanah sit on my lap for awhile and hope and pray that she would be happy there for a bit as I didn't think I would be able to pick her up. This is starting to affect how I interact with her....sigh...I hate being the patient!

Better tonight?

Tonight is night #3 of letting Delanah fuss it out. We started at 8:50pm and it is now 9:28pm. She has fallen asleep twice and woken herself up twice. Actually, she's been quiet for a few minutes now, so maybe this is it! She had a great day today and should be plenty tired!
This morning she was up, bright eyed and bushy tailed, at 5:40am :) eeek! She had some cuddle time with g-pa and g-ma and was asleep in her swing by 7:15 :) I decided to try for a little nap myself (Delanah is a loud sleeper! She is in a pack and play in the room I am sleeping in while we're down here and I don't think I got more than a few hours of sleep last night), but just as I was drifting off she woke up! Figures! Yes, I have already gotten the "talks" today from well meaning, experienced moms on how I should let her entertain herself and I should have slept. Oh well, she was so happy I just had to get up and play with her! She was hungry anyway :) She had another good nap on g-pa while I was getting some "me" time :) It was such a beautiful day today that we went into the backyard with the dogs and then decided to take a little walk to the park.
Delanah had her first ride in the "big girl" part of the stroller! No car seat needed! She started off in her baseball hat and sunnies, but was quite unhappy so we switched to just the sunhat and ditched the sunnies. I went to swings in the park and sat Delanah on my lap and we did a gentle sway for some time. She watched people for awhile and then we saw g-pa drive by and decided to head back. We had enough time to have a feed and a change and then took off with Bailey for our walk to meet mom at her school. I was expecting it to be a lot longer, but we made good time and Bay did so well!
Tonight I took a little cat nap on the couch and Delanah was propped in a recliner with heaps of toys and g-ma and g-pa to entertain her. She had a great time! She played for almost an hour and then needed a change and a feed and then it was off to bed.
Okay, it's now 9:43pm and I haven't heard a peep...do we have success? Can I go to bed?!

I did it!!!!

I let Delanah fuss herself to sleep tonight! And I survived!!! Last night was the first time we decided to let her fuss herself to sleep. I say fuss and not cry because in reality she wasn't crying, but man, was she throwing a tantrum! She has my temper :) Last night it took 40min and this was after we had tried to put her down several times. 11:30pm...I really don't want to be forced to be awake at that time anymore! Tonight I started the bedtime process a little too late as well and 32 min after I put her down, she was out! Only 10:32pm tonight!!! What makes tonight even more momentous is the fact that we're at my parents house and she is in her pack and play and not her crib...very different places and yet we did it!!!!!
I admit, there were tears, only on my part though. I stayed in the living room and got some great support from my mom, who has been through it twice herself :) I just feel so proud of myself right now...like a "real" mom. I know, I know, I am a real mom...but now I am making decisions that I know are good for her even though they are tough for me. I know every mom goes through this, I guess I just figured that my sweet child would never fuss and I wouldn't have this difficulty. Oh, wait, she's my daughter, not that I will admit that I am a drama queen, but she had to have gotten it from somewhere!