Muddled thoughts

Ever been in a place where your thoughts seem to make no sense? Emotions seem to come out of left field, your mind travels to places you never wanted it to go, never imagined it would go. So here I sit, a headache teasing me, is it coming? Is light going to be painful? A darkened room, I should have napped, too late now, we leave in 30 min and I still have lunch to clean up, a bag to prepare...sigh....a morning wasted?

Is my life too happy? Are things going too well? What happens when these thoughts enter the conscious? Less of a prediction and more of self-proclaiming prophecy? When's the ball going to drop? What bad is coming my way? How will it affect my family? I hate this state. Is everything perfect? No, but we are happy. Why can't I just enjoy this time? Why do I feel that something bad is going to happen? Maybe I need more sleep...