MOPS!

Yesterday was so big in so many ways. Other than Delanah uttering "mama" for the first time, I experienced my first MOPS meeting! It was also Delanah's first time in a daycare setting. Big day for both! I really, really enjoyed the meeting. We had a speaker sharing ways that we could bring devotionals and teachings into our home. We had some discussion questions afterwards and I think that was the best thing for me.
I always feel a little out of place in church. I mean, I identify myself as a Christian, but some times I feel so inadequate. I feel as if everyone around me knows the answers to the questions, that there is some secret to becoming a better Christian and I just don't know what that is. I want to raise Delanah knowing the Lord, but how do I do that if I am not confident myself? As we were sharing, I took a leap and mentioned something that is heavy on my heart. Dave is not a very active Christian and sometimes, most of the time, I feel that he only goes to church and prays before meals because I do. I had always wanted to marry a Christian, and when I met Dave, he hadn't gone to church...well...since he was baptized as an infant! It wasn't important to his family to practice their faith, but they claimed their denomination anyway. Once we met, he became interested in his denomination and started attending services and the next thing I know I get a phone call and he tells me that he is getting confirmed in his faith the next day, but couldn't understand why I was upset about that. I wouldn't have been upset if he had shared with me that he knew, understood, practiced his faith and comprehended the depth of what getting confirmed meant. I thought then, and still think now, that he assumed that's what people do, it was the next step in life, a checked box, not the spiritual commitment that I take it to be.
Even now I am surprised by what he believes. He has chosen to believe that Satan does not exist, because how can God allow something like that? That statement sent chills through me...how can you protect yourself from something you won't recognize as existing? Anyhoos, as we were sharing in our groups about what steps we are going to take to introduce the bible and our faith to our children in our home, I shared that Dave was not in the same place in his faith that I was. I honestly feel like every time I walk into church that we are the only couple experiencing that. Well...almost every single woman at that table shared the same thing!!!!! Some shared that their husbands want nothing to do with God at all anymore. In that, I am thankful, Dave still wants to learn, is still open to knowing the Lord. I am blessed and I need to start focusing on what I have, not what I don't.
I am looking forward to sharing this year with these ladies. My table has 7 people and they are just so nice. What a great group!