Spring?

So apparently April is spring....ummm...did anyone bother to tell that to Colorado? I am looking at at least 7 inches of snow out there...sigh! The best part is that we're expecting 70 deg Monday and 78 degrees Wednesday! We are going to have to make taking Bailey to the puppy park tomorrow a priority to snow boof :)
So my insomnia is back again...full force now as well. Last night, well, this morning actually, I didn't get to sleep until 2:30. Delanah was up to eat a little after 6 and then I just let her sleep in bed with me until my alarm went off at 8:45 (okay, I reset it to 9am!). It was just so sweet...she was on my left and i turned onto my right side and she just snuggled right into my back :) Sometimes I really miss those co-sleeping days...but she needs her bed and I need mine!
I was reading up last night on insomnia while breastfeeding and while there aren't any meds I can take to help me sleep, I found some sites that were delving into why I may be having insomnia. One suggestion was PPD, which I have no other symptoms of, and another suggestion was stress...now that I have plenty of! Let's see...I am stressing over getting everything ready in time for our flights, over getting the house in some semblance of order, of keeping my house clean, of getting that stupid master bath finished, of what may be growing behind the tiles in our 2nd bathroom that we are now using as the main bath, of finances...I had a dream the other night that my former place of employment called and said they expected me in the following morning and that I had a full patient load, starting off with a new patient...eeeek!!!! It just keeps popping into the back of my mind that we would be able to save more, be more comfortable, if I returned to work, even part time. The thing is, I don't want someone else to raise our daughter. I am her mother, this is my job, and although it gets tiring and stressful at times, I really feel that this is what a mom should be doing...staying home and raising her child/children. I am so thankful that Dave is supportive in this desire of mine, and he has stated that if I want to return to work he would support that as well. I can't imagine not being the one to change every diaper and get every grin and cuddle during the day...it breaks my heart just thinking about it.
Ya think I am holding on to some stress here? It helped to sit down and type it all out to my dear friend and sounding board Janice. I love that she never judges me and that I can be open and honest with her. We all need a friend like that! Thank you Janice! I woke this morning in a better mood than I've had in a long time. I was the nice wife again. Poor Dave seems to get the leftovers of me lately, and I'll be the first to admit that they haven't been the greatest leftovers.
Tonight, thanks to the heavy, wet snow, our satellite was out. So instead of news and senseless drivel that seems to make up television these days, we watched a movie together. What a great way to spend a Friday night!